I have been having a sweet bitter experience in my life. About a year ago I started my quest to find out the origin of my Religion (Seventh-day Adventist). In this road I found out amazing things that the organization has been hiding from the members. After ruling out how wrong all my teachings have been, I decided to find out if there is at least a GOD. I have read many interesting books and experience different things in my life. In March I went to visit my familiy in Venezuela. I have a very interesting family. In this trip full of beautiful experiences, I found my self coming out of the closet as a gay man and as a non-religious person. My family was in shock to find out that I was no longer going to church on saturdays. They didn't even question me on my sexuality a whole lot, but on my lack of faith toward the church.
I was trying my best to share a beautiful time with them. My parents are in their 80's, an almost every member of my family is a SDA. I was trying to show them how happy I am now and how much I love them. But all I could feel and see in their faces was a sadness toward me. They were horrified that I was going to end up in the eternal fire that will comsum this earth and that they would not see me again. Many times I sat down and poured my heart out to them and let them know that I finally have found the road to peace in my life. But in their faces, I found pain. I love my family but I also love myself, and I could not sacrifice the beauty that I have found within me to follow an old tradition that doesn't make sense.
It has been a tough path to walk on, and one that I have been avoiding for a while. I am very content with my life and excited to look forward in discovering new things in my life. I love living this moment and sharing my life with others is a wonderful thing. I realize that they want the best for me. But their best is just an illution that they have learned to live with. Beauty, peace, love is everywhere and is exciting when you discover it!.
love and peace to all of you
chicoburner
I was trying my best to share a beautiful time with them. My parents are in their 80's, an almost every member of my family is a SDA. I was trying to show them how happy I am now and how much I love them. But all I could feel and see in their faces was a sadness toward me. They were horrified that I was going to end up in the eternal fire that will comsum this earth and that they would not see me again. Many times I sat down and poured my heart out to them and let them know that I finally have found the road to peace in my life. But in their faces, I found pain. I love my family but I also love myself, and I could not sacrifice the beauty that I have found within me to follow an old tradition that doesn't make sense.
It has been a tough path to walk on, and one that I have been avoiding for a while. I am very content with my life and excited to look forward in discovering new things in my life. I love living this moment and sharing my life with others is a wonderful thing. I realize that they want the best for me. But their best is just an illution that they have learned to live with. Beauty, peace, love is everywhere and is exciting when you discover it!.
love and peace to all of you
chicoburner
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