Tony,

I've read a few of your posts. It sounds like you were raised in a truly abusive home and it makes me sad that you had to go through that. It's also sad that your parents will never really be able to have a real parent-child relationship with you and your siblings as they continue to grow old.

If you're looking for more answers to your questions, or if you need justification for the feelings you've had about adventism but were never able to express, there's some additional websites I'd like to share with you:

www.truthorfables.com
www.ellenwhite.org/

There's also help in book form at Life Assurance Ministries. This book, in particular, put a lot of things in perspective for me:

www.ratzlaf.com/Qstore/Qstore.cgi

There are also other forums dedicated to helping recovering adventists. Far be it from me to advertise competing sites, but if you have a need, I'm sure you can find them.